Weight loss. Weight gain. Toe-may-toe. Toe-mahh-toe. Same difference. Over the last 3-4 years my weight has been yo-yo(ing) like nobody’s business. I went from being my heaviest in 2010 where I’d gained about 40 lbs in college, to losing 20+ lbs over the next 2 years and looking good in 2012. Then life threw me a curve ball and I slowly but surely gained all 20 lbs back <insert angry emoji here> My only saving grace was that this 20 lbs didn’t look the same as the 20 I lost. Part of what I gained was definitely muscle mass, don’t get it twisted though, I still got fat.
In the picture above to the left is me in 2010, you can clearly see all the weight I carried in my face and the lack of visible neck. Roughly 188 lbs. I’m only 5’2″. I looked like a butterball. To the right is me presently, 2014. A few changes: browner hair, no colored contacts, a bit more style and a few pounds lighter.
I’m baring my plump little soul in hopes of helping someone else. It’s not easy owning the fact that you once looked like the Michelin man, got small and then got big again. It’s a hell of a lot easier just to hide amongst the shadows of Instagram filters and face shots at different angles than accept defeat after you’ve worked so hard for so long.
But the truth is, we all fall down. We all poop. We all <insert another basic human function>. The choice becomes yours as to whether or not you get back up. And that’s exactly what I’ve chosen to do and I chose to do it publicly: 1. For accountability 2. For support 3. For accountability. Reaching weight loss/fitness goals is not easy, especially when you feel like there are a few hundred watching and some of those don’t want to see you succeed.
I’ve rededicated my life back to becoming fit and for the last 23 days I’ve been doing a daily workout regimen (Insanity) and watching what I eat by counting calories (MyFitnessPal) -to you 23 days may not sound like a lot, but think of it like a recovering alcoholic. 23 days without a drink is a hell of a lot better than being drunk before noon every day. I’m proud of myself and I’m going to continue to kick my own ass as I finish this 60 day program and start another after that.
Researchers say it only takes 21 days to make or break a habit, I am SO in there. Hopefully this transparency motivates somebody to get back on whatever horse they fell off. If you want to connect with me on my weight loss journey follow my Instagram: @Ashley_dotcom -where I post daily pics of my work outs and MyFitnessPal: Ashlash88 -where you can see how well (or not) I’m eating.
*lunges out of le blog*